About my heart

I tried so hard to keep you alive; I tried with all that I was back then.

I held you in my hands, so small and static, expecting just one beat.

I had no strength in me to give you, I needed you to fight.

I stared at you for two eternities, holding my breath.

I blinked and you turned purple.

I finally understood, terrified, your devastating stillbirth.

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